Kind of a Wreck, Kind of a Leader

You may have noticed that I haven’t posted in a while. There are a few reasons for that.

Part of it is simple. I needed to step back and focus on my health for a bit. But another part has been more complicated. I started to question why I was even writing this blog in the first place. Maybe that is imposter syndrome sneaking in, or maybe it is just the natural ebb and flow of purpose.

When I began writing, it was mostly for myself, a space to reflect, process, and make sense of leadership in all its complexity. But I also hoped that something I shared might resonate with others, that my experiences might help someone else feel a little less alone in theirs. Lately, I have been wondering if this space is actually doing that, or if it has simply become a quiet place for me to process my own thoughts.

And I did not want to keep writing just to fill space. I wanted it to mean something.

If I am being honest, I have felt a little lost lately, personally and professionally. That is hard to admit when you write about leadership. There are days I question, who am I to talk about being a leader when I am still trying to figure so much out myself?

So maybe there is not a clear purpose to this post other than to check in, to say that things have been quiet here for a reason. Maybe I will find my spark for writing again soon, or maybe this blog has run its course. I do not know yet.

What I do know is this: leadership is messy. Life is messy. Being human is messy. And for now, I am just trying to make sense of it all, one honest pause at a time.